On the Other Side...

 Hello everybody welcome back to the everythinglifee with a double e blog,thank you for taking your time to read through my article,my little note...thank you for coming back if this is not your first time,I really love and appreciate you...whenever I post my prayer is always God let this reach whoever you had purposed in heaven...let your will be so... because in the Lord's prayer we say God let your will be done on earth as it was in heaven and if earth is his footstool then my only prayer is that his glory will be extended and poured on this other side...I love it that God is building a community,am honestly grateful y'all...today I don't know the title of my article but I have a picture...a picture of something I want to share maybe the title will come up as I write...

This week,can I ask how your week has been...how have you been dear reader,I hope the week was good to you,I hope moving with God gave you strength when things were tough,I am happy and grateful you made it,it counts...you are more than a conqueror... I've been so intentional about my mind and thoughts this week...I guess deep questions make you dive deeper than we think possible,I just didn't want to stay in a loop,I wanted to be an active participant as God works through me and within me...

I wanted to post yesterday but truth is I didn't have the words or language to express what was inside...I felt I couldn't force it and though I understand God moves when we move I had no idea where to start from...I just have this picture in my mind,but how do I take this picture and transform it into words....Once I thought writing was easy because it flew,words always came and it was my way of expressing everything that's going on inside me still is as a matter of fact the difference is now am so in tune with myself I want to write something impactful and authentic to me,something I can relate to,something that moves me and hopefully move the person on the other side of my articles...and the more I step into this the more am learning how much my content comes from within...I can't buy it I can't fake it I can't go shallow on it because if I am inviting the spirit of God to move within me he will only move within a version true to what he created,as per his will,he will call me to go deeper with him and fill me up not in areas I want to write about but in areas I need to be filled up...he will work it out and speak to me as I write in ways that draw me closer to him and in my understanding and knowledge of him his glory will then flow through me...it can't stay stagnant or bottled up it flows to other people other places and I must say God is an amazing God I can't even start to explain how he works because it's complex for the human mind...all this goes to say maybe our gifts are ways God can use to fill us up,transform us,develop us...I thought our gifts are meant to make impact in the world but slowly am understanding they are vessels God uses to nurture us and the people he called us to serve for his glory...and we can't serve from an empty cup can we?

I can't remember the sermon I was listening to when this picture came up in my mind but it was  so clear I couldn't ignore nor push it away...I remember couple of years ago my notes really revolved around brokenness and pain...I thought I was writing it from a place of creativity because am artistic but now I understand I was expressing what's inside me without even knowing because I wasn't so intune with my inner being back then...my favourite line was-its like am alone surrounded by huge walls,walls I built to protect myself,from the demons from the pain from the hurt,it's lonely but it's safe it's cold but I'll be okay because I got me- I mostly wrote about a girl crouching on the floor in a dark room covered by walls so high...walls she hated but thought were necessary to protect her,to cover her...a strong fearless girl who bleeds in the dark but is willing to take every crack than face the dark night...the darkest dustiest parts of her,is not the pain of demons chasing her down and fire burning her worse than building walls to protect her from all that anguish?..I still feel like crying when am writing this because it still tags a place in my heart,a soft place in me...I still want to hold that girl and kiss her...tell her she is okay now but anyway I remember listening to that sermon I had this picture in my mind of the same girl,if I could draw I would draw this girl because she is so clear in my head I could literally touch her but don't mind me it's the artistic part in me...

I had this picture or vision of the same girl with a log in her hand something huge,breaking down the walls one by one,and as the walls came down gradually light came in like bright rays burning her face to a light beautiful glow...she saw the light and it gave her strength to continue facing the walls and break them down,she couldn't stop,it terrified her facing them but suddenly she had this fire inside her this strength this overwhelming presence like someone was beside her as she did this and their presence was giving her the assurance confidence and companionship that afterall she wasn't alone...she looked around and there she saw a man looking at her,watching her,he was so close and it felt like he had been there for a long time too..and I knew there and then it was Jesus...

That made me tearful..yet I had this question running in my mind God if you were there with me the whole time why couldn't you break down the walls for me why did I have to do it myself with you watching me...you could have done it easily quickly...why did I have to do it...and God told me I needed you to face the walls and have a confrontation with them I needed you to face them sit with them and later break them down not run away from them I needed you to know and understand that truly what I told you was true I will never leave you nor forsake you,I will always be with you because you are my child,my beloved child I know what made you build those walls what made you hide  but I also know you have the same power and fire  that I put in you to break them down,I know it's in you and I will stir it,I want you to know believe and understand it's in you...I want you to show the enemy that no weapon formed against you will ever prosper I needed you to believe these words in the deepest of hearts i wanted you to slay the same demons you once feared to look down at the walls that made you a lesser version of who I know you to be and face them,walk through it and break the wall down so that you can believe you have everything in you to take down anything that comes against you through me who strengthens you..me Jesus Christ...if I had taken down the walls for you and took you to light how would you believe that the same power that rose me from the dead is the same power working inside you...if I had done it for you and made it easy...you wouldn't have your own revelation of who I am in your life, for your next course next steps I needed to elevate your understanding of me,make you a better believer,let you know me for yourself...on the other side of all this is light...that is the light of my glory amd my presence,it will always shine over you and be the lamp on your feet as you walk now in freedom in spirit and in goodness...I am your God...the one you worship and I will be in every corner every wall every step you take I will be the cloud watching over you the spirit that wakes you up every morning and stirs your hunger for me each day I will watch you wherever you go whatever you do... believe it for it is so and seek only me and my righteousness...

How many walls have you taken down how many walls are you hoping to take down,how many are you trusting God to take down for you...I had many if I tell you all I saw were high walls surrounding me believe me baby...walls of pain walls of trauma walls of trust issues walls of fear insecurity walls of abandonment...maybe you have yours some may pop in your mind as you read...walls of betrayal walls of suicidal thoughts walls of believing you will never amount to anything walls of comparison and discontentment with your life...

You know what a wall is?Anything blocking us from being who God created us to be,who he knows us to be,the truest version of ourselves our core that can only be found in him...he said before you were formed in your mother's womb I knew you I sanctified you and I chose you to be a prophet for the nations I love this verse because now I believe it...I let it take root in my heart because I didn't believe it for myself then,once it was only a verse a random verse but when it came alive for me it shifted everything...i speak it often over myself especially when doubt creeps in because now I believe God knew me he knows who I am and he knows the version he created,who he wanted me to become on this earth and if I stay close by the river in submission and surrender maybe just maybe he will reveal this version slowly and slowly and develop me to become this version this powerful woman I know  I am...

You know that version of you in your head those you think are unachievable though you wish could become true yet feel unrealistic...how can I be this man this woman it's impossible I have never seen anyone like that before maybe you haven't because God creates unique masterpiece,only you can be you and no one can be you babyyyy...

Sometimes God fights our battles take down walls and deliver us and sometimes God gives us the swords the logs the tools to fight and stays close watching us because he wants to elevate you reveal how much strong of a warrior woman or man you are,so that anytime you find yourself against the walls you will believe nothing is too great for my God I will overcome this too..all these at the end of the day draw as closer to God and reveal his nature to us...sometimes he needs us to believe he will never leave us nor forsake us...he is with us he will have you take your walls down one by one give you strength and every tool you need to take it down because he knows what's on the other side of the walls...glory his glory...

I feel so good after writing this I never thought it was possible to actually put down what was on my mind...but I did and I am happy,I wrote it with so many different emotions...and I could feel the strength of God taking me through as I wrote...and I love love it I hope it blesses your heart I hope it give you a new perspective on how to look at situations circumstances and life itself I love this quote;life happens for you not to you I say it so many times am sure my siblings are probably bored with it...but it's true...you are more than you can ever know or imagine compared to what God knows about you,stay close by the river the well that never runs dry...I will end this article by a quote I heart this Friday morning...

Trust the plan God has for you,not tolerate it.. something to chew until next week Peace loves🌼